The Insanity of Living Down the Hall

Day 38 since I woke up and had coffee with him. That was our thing. Coffee for an hour discussing who we had talked to the day before, updates on news stories and headlines. We had stopped watching the news many many months ago. Everything was so infuriating and seemed to do nothing but incite violence. A few minutes of local news that did nothing but count the dead and dying form Covid-19.

I have a coffee pot in my room now where I wake up and hear him stirring somewhere in the house. His office is next door to where I am living. He is talking business and I am listening to worship music and writing things about him on the computer.

I run to the grocery store and get somethings to throw on the grill. One steak. one potato. One this. One that. I come home he’s in the kitchen. I don’t want to go in kitchen now. I sit everything on the dining table. 30 years I have known this man and now I can’t put the milk in the refrigerator?

I light the grill and bring everything to the balcony. I put Chris Stapleton radio on the speakers and turn it up loud. I grill. I sip my wine. Dogs jump around me as if everything is the same and everything is off. I never noticed how many sad songs Chris Stapleton sings. Suddenly Whiskey Myers comes on. I’m furious. I think about the concert tickets that was planned for April. How would someone that loves you tell another woman “she can be ok or stay home! I got us tickets and we will stay at the beach for week.” While my wife sits at home if she does’t like it.

The song Whiskey M was singing was stupid. I fast forward it. I don’t know one WM song. Wouldn’t be a concert I would enjoy anyway. I like to sing along and dance. Look at me ranting over stupidness even now. LOL!

So today I will move my body, enjoy what God has given me in this life, salvage what I can of my heart in hopes of a peaceful life ahead. I will push out negative thoughts and pull in our love and joy. One foot in front of the other.